On routines, journaling, Spirit, and the gentle call to share more of my authentic self.
I have a lot of daily routines. Being neurodivergent, those routines keep me from “going off the rails,” so to speak. My routines keep me organized and help me remember what I need to do to attend to the daily necessities of life.
One of my routines is to keep a journal. I’m not perfect at it by any means, but it’s one of the highlights of my day when I get a chance to sit down, connect with Spirit, and write what flows through me. By Spirit, I mean everything that comprises a consciousness that far transcends my own. On some days, the consciousness I connect to feels intimate and comforting. On other days, that consciousness feels expansive and all-encompassing. What never changes is the love I feel: complete, whole, and 100% unconditional love.
Lately, I’ve been feeling a “nudge” to expand my routine by stepping out of the shell I built around myself. I wish I could properly attribute this phrase, but I can’t remember where I heard it: “Extroverted recluse.”
It perfectly describes the current stage of my life. I still have my extroverted side. I love the energy of being around people, but when I get home, I become a bit of a hermit. I quite literally become a recluse. I need that time to spend with my husband and recharge my body, mind, and soul.
What does that have to do with my journal and, in particular, this post?
The nudge is to stop “dabbling” in the occasional blog post and lean in and commit. I have no idea if I’ll be posting daily, weekly, bi-weekly, or something else. What I feel is that it’s time to share more, step out more. It’s about putting a more joyful, hopeful energy into the world than how many people read or engage with what I write.
My process hasn’t changed much. I still connect, I still allow the words to flow through me, but I’m opening to a much wider field now. I’m also writing from a much more personal perspective, not because I have anything profound to share, but because the “nudge” I keep getting is simply to be my authentic, joyous self. It’s okay to be that “extroverted recluse,” and in doing so, I’ll do my greatest good. Here’s to leaning in and committing. 🙏🏼
